SandWHICH Which to Choose: Middle Child Syndrome

Wow this is my 3rd one in one day. I'm on a role.
So I can't sleep for some odd reason if that's not obvious. I haven't been able to do that a lot lately. The last month actually. I guess it's just stress, which I must say most of that is gone, so kuddos for that. I just have a lot on my mind...TOO MUCH on my mind actually. My graduation, my sister's wedding, going to college, all that jazz. I'm ready to leave, but I'm not ready to leave the people I love behind. It's like I'm stuck in the middle (like always). It's not easy being the middle child I suppose. I'm the middle child, I always get stuck in the middle of conversations and it doesn't matter who it's with. I'm always stuck "in between", I can never make up my mind on things. Like in Mrs. Moore's class: she'll give us a topic to write on sometimes and we have to choose sides and I'm the WORST at that because I can never go on ONE side. Just about everything i can never make up my mind. Get this flavor soda or get this one, this color or that, do this or do that, wear this or wear that, carry this or carry that...EVERYWHERE I go it's this or that and 9 out of 10 times, I choose both. It's a gift, what can I say? lol. Sometimes I wish I could make up my mind on most things, but I guess that's just who God made me: The Middle Child: Destined to Stay in the Middle Wherever She Goes. What a label. 12:08 in the morning. What to talk about? THIS or THAT...lol.
My sister's wedding is this coming Friday, and no offense, but I can't wait until it's over. It's been very stressful for all of us especially my mom. My mom's making/has made most of my sister's stuff: her bouquet, mine and our cousin Stephanie's bridesmaids candle/glass thing we're carrying, flower arrangements, you name it, my mom's made it except the dress, the cake, and the food. Ordered all of that, but yeah. My mom's superwoman and my sister? BRIDES-ZILLA! RAAAAWWWRRR watch out! lol. You think I'm joking, but I'm far from joking. I just can't wait until this is all over and done with so I can focus all of my time on my graduation which will be VERY hectic. The price you pay to have a HUMONGO family from all 4 sides may I add. My grandma is 1 out of 8 I believe and my grandfather is 1 out of 9 I believe. So yeah, tons of family, and I love every minute of it!
But yeah, I may go to bed now? I don't know. It's the last full week for seniors and I believe we get our yearbooks either tomorrow or sometime this week. But I really don't care about getting sleep. School is almost over and I could care less if I get a "good nights sleep" anymore...lol. But I'm going to "try" and go to sleep (wink wink) lol so goodnight world. May everyone have a blessed week! =]