Memory Loss Much?

Wow what a week! I had to go to the emergency room Tuesday night/Wednesday morning because they think I had a seizure. I don’t remember hardly anything and it’s driving me BONKERS! I remember my chorus concert and almost passing out afterwards because I hadn’t eaten since I was at school for 4 hours and never went home, but I don’t remember my friend Katie giving me my graduation bracelet while we were handing out programs for the concert which is weird because while she gave me it we were talking about this particular guy who we saw SMOKING coming up the stairs for the concert (not mentioning any names…bahaha). So idk…I remember talking to my mom, Brittany, Dillon, Tobi, Ariel, and Ariel’s mom about going to the bonfire that night, but I don’t remember going to the bonfire when we all did except for Ariel. I remember that me and Tobi were supposed to pick up Ariel, but supposively her and I got into an arguments because it was 9:47 and me and Tobi were still not on our way to pick Ariel up and Ariel had to be home by 10:30 so it was no use in her going. I don’t remember having that conversation. I remember going to Tobi’s house, my house to change, McDonalds, the gas station, waving at one of my friends at Coldstone, and Foodlion to talk Adam and Collin into going to the bonfire, but I don’t remember getting in Tobi’s truck after that. I don’t remember ever going to the bonfire, talking to my mom at the bonfire, being mad at Brittany, seeing Brittany at the bonfire, or anything. My memory has come back a little bit, but not a whole lot. I remember throwing my McDonalds cup into the fire just because my mom asked me what I did with it. Tobi said something about horses and I knew that Katie (the bonfire was help at her house) had horses because she told me that back in 9th grade. I slowly remembered one horse out of the like 10 she had. It was the white one named Chloe. I kept on looking at my hands while I was in the hospital because my left one was dirty and my right was not. That’s when I remembered me touching the white horse and apparently I touched all of the horses, but don’t remember any of them but the white one. Brittany told me that the white horse was my favorite so that’s probably why I remember her. And then Wednesday night Brittany and I were flipping through my yearbook and I immediately stopped and pointed at this girl and Brittany asked me why I remember her because she was at the bonfire, but I don’t remember WHY I remember her. Brittany told me because that girl was dancing crazy the whole night. I don’t remember me, Tobi, Brittany, Adam, and Collin going to Collin’s dad’s house. That’s where I had my seizure. I don’t even remember Brittany ever being with me. I knew she was going to go to the bonfire because she told me that after my concert, but I don’t remember seeing her. When I remember me throwing my cup in the bonfire, the white horse, and that girl, it’s so weird. It’s like a bright, white background and just a fire and just me and the horse and just the girl. No trees that were supposively behind the bonfire, no stable where the horses were supposively at, and no other people around that girl or motion of what the girl was doing. It’s so weird! I’m so confused and I wished so badly that I could remember stuff, and hopefully I will. I get so lost during the day. I forget conversations I have with people, I forget what I’m doing half the time, and I just forget the littlest things. Like yesterday and again today, KRay was explaining to me what to grade on each of the papers she gave me and how to grade them, and she had to explain it to me at least twice. Haha I don’t feel as stupid because she forgets things to on account of she had surgery and was put on this medicine where she loses her short term memory. I don’t know, I just wish I could just wake up and remember everything! That senior bonfire was supposed to be special because it was just all of us seniors coming together to have fun and throw all of our school stuff away because we’re finally done, but yet, I don’t remember any of it and it makes me so mad. I lost like 2 hours of information and I get so frustrated when people come up to me and ask me things about the bonfire. I just sit there looking confused and scared and pretty much just stupid. So I just nod and laugh and act like I know what the heck they’re talking about when I don’t! I get so frustrated and scared where I’m on the verge of tears because I don’t remember things. It is scary and I just pray that I’ll remember.