Relieved

I can feel God on my heart everyday, but this week, I have felt Him so much more. I spent the week with my stepmom, Tammy, and her family this week just to get away from things and it totally helped me. Though I wasn't ready to come home and saying goodbye to her hurt, I'm glad to be home and be surrounded by the people at home as well. While I was with Tammy, her and I talked so much and it felt so good to talk to her face-to-face again. She was the person who helped me so much back when my parents were getting divorced and even though she was just my stepmom, she was one of my best friends. While I was at her house, we talked about my dad (they're divorced actually and have been for like 5 years) and the things he put me through when I was little and still today. She told me that I live in the past still and I need to just move on from it. And even though I have moved on from my past since 9th grade when I met KRay, I still hold on to the past to this day just a little bit because it's hard to push past all pf the bad things I have been through in my life. But Tammy is 100% right. I DO need to just move on, and she told me once I get out on my own, it'll all get better gradually because I won't constantly have someone to remind me of my past. I love Tammy so much and it's so hard to say goodbye to her whenever I see her. Last summer was the first time I spent a week with her at her house