Ready? Uncheck

- Dorm supplies: 1/2 check
- Packed: 3/4 check
- Roommate: check
- Emotions in tack: UNCHECK

So, Friday at 7:00 in the am, I will no longer be living at my house 24/7. It's going to be a very emotional and mental roller coaster. I have never been away from my house for more than a week in my ENTIRE life (shows how much I get out haha). I'm physically and mentally ready, but not emotionally, and if you'd ask me why, I couldn't tell you. I'll only be 30 minutes away. I'm glad I didn't jump on the Winthrop bandwagon this year because I honestly wouldn't be able to live 2 hours away right now (with everything that's going on and just because I don't feel ready). I think the further distance I go (gradually), the better off I'll be. What's funny is, I'm going to Columbia College this year, planning to go to Winthrop next year, and then either the spring of 2011/fall of 2011, I'm planning on studying ABROAD IN AUSTRALIA FOR 5 MONTHS!! If that's not a BIG GAP of gradualness, I don't know what is! haha. I know I can do this though because I have faith in God to get me through anything and everything and I also have faith in myself, to push myself no matter how hard I feel like falling down. I'm shooting for my dreams and I'm going to make those dreams come true no matter what anyone says because they don't matter. God's doing this for a reason and I'm determined to succeed in everything He throws at me. So, even though I'm definitely not EMOTIONALLY ready to do any of this, I know I can do it because I have God and I have the MOST AMAZING family and friends here to back me up! "Don't let anyone back you down. You must do this for YOURSELF because can't never could!" - Pocahontas (not the ACTUAL Disney Pocahontas-inside joke) <---you know who you are if you're reading this :)

Phewww!

1 week and 6 days until I move into Columbia College! Let the count down begin! I'm so exhausted! This week I've packed my stuff and I'm STILL not done with everything just because I bought more stuff today for my dorm. I just had so much stuff to go through and throw away and give away. I'm probably the BIGGEST teenaged pack-rat ever! (by the way: lovely packing ^^^) I just have so much stuff and it feels really good to get rid of some things, but I STILL have too much stuff! haha. Today me, my mom, my sister, my aunt, and my grandma went dorm shopping for me and I got SO MUCH stuff that I desperately needed and I'm glad I got all of that done. But yet I have to kinda start my packing all over again haha! Oh well!
The last month has just been very hard for me. Actually, scratch that this whole SUMMER has been very hard on me because I've had to say goodbye to so many people and I've just been so anxious and excited, but scared because I'm just now realizing that I'm moving out and going to college! It's so overwhelming and confusing at times, but I know it'll do me good being on my own. I have a LONNNGG 4 years ahead of me and I'm ready to face it. Even though I'm scared and don't want to leave at times, I know God will get me through it all and push me past any obstacle I may face like always!

OH I ALMOST FORGOT! My BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WORLD gave me the BEST surprise today. She had told me earlier today (while I was out shopping) to come to her house to pick up a present she had bought me and our friend Raven and that her brother had it because him and they're younger sister came back to California to "get some stuff for the move". I asked Brittany why she wasn't here and she told me that she "wasn't allowed to come back" (they were GOING to just stay in California and live there instead of coming back to South Carolina...very long story). And I was just thinking to myself, "well that's not cool!" Well I get to her house and ring the doorbell and everything. Well, guess who answers the door?!?! BRITTANY ELIZABETH MARTIN! :) I was SO EXCITED, I just busted into tears because I had missed her SO MUCH! Well, NOW she's staying in South Carolina for another year and then moving to California next year, and even though it'll be sad to see her leave AGAIN, I know I'll be ok since when she told me she was staying in California, I didn't know of it before she left because she was supposed to only stay there for the summer! So THAT totally made my day AND my summer as well! I'm so excited to have my best friend back! I didn't know what I would have ever done without her this year!

Alright, enough of that! I hope everyone has a wonderful rest of the weekend and a wonderfull upcoming week as well! And for all of you college students, good luck with everything you guys do. I know it'll be hard, but we can all get through it as long as we don't give up :)

FYI: Girlscout Thin Mint ice cream is the bomb.com :)